Friends......

Kay so new thought that happened today at lunch. im sitting with my friends and wonder.. hmm i have a lot of different friends. Emo, goth, preppy, rocker, popular, cheerleaders, jocks, regular people, Christians, geeky, everyone. i find that there is a whole bunch of different people as our friends. why is that? what makes us attracted to them? why do we pick different people? half of the people in my group of friends are the total opposite and a few are like me. But we all have something in common. we are all quick to judge other people. Even me.. yes i know that i am too. we all are guilty of that. the only person who didn't judge other people was Jesus. Maybe they don't sing very well, or they dress weird, or they like school and homework and you don't. we all judge because we think that it is weird because it is different from us. Jesus is the only one who doesn't judge others. The only one. He didn't judge people because they were poor or because they didn't do the right thing and sinned. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. So we would all be judged wouldn't we? but we havn't. Jesus loved us all and didn't judge us and he died on the cross for us so we could go to heaven... he loved us that much that he didn't judge us.

So, thats what i thought today.

I think that the next time you see someone who is different go talk to them and don't judge them... thats my challenge for you guys this time.. :)
Happy Monday!

Why?????

I have never been this mad at my dad.
He is being a control freak and trying to control my life. And when i tell him he can't he flips out... and makes me feel horrible and like a horrible daughter.
Sometimes i wish things that i want to come true. sometimes i wish he was dead then it will be all okay but then i can live my life the way i want to. but then i know that i should love him the way Jesus loves him and then i am not mad at him.
Sometimes i wish that there was a way to escape all of this. I am physically unable to be free of this. I have no where to go and i don't know how to live on my own. I don't know how people who cut stand the pain. i tried once and it hurt too much and i couldn't continue.
And the other thing is, i can't kill myself because of all the people outsside of my family that love me.
So what im trying to say (not sure if i was successful in getting it across) but if there is anyone in your life that is like my dad then you know that there is people out there going through the same thing. and also know that i am praying for you and i hope you know that.

That was me venting. thanks for listening (or reading).
Thanks.

The Name of the Game

I'm sure that you all have gotten your hearts broken right? well i have too and just recently. This guy who we will call Bob, broke my heart then came crawling back for more. And i took him back. i thought that i was wrong about him the first time and hey he changed right? and then he hurt me again. and trust me it still hurts the second time. I was told i wasn't worth it and that's great but then he gets back and asks me out AGAIN and won't leave me alone. Has anyone had that happen to you before? well i have MANY times. Okay so i would be what you guys call a hopeless romantic. i like to think that the one who will sweep me off my feet is close but he never is. So whats the name of the game? why do we all keep playing this game called love but is really heartbreak if we keep getting hurt? and why is it that we always get hurt as females and the guys walk away un hurt? that's why i wanna know the name f the game. If any of you know what the name is and why we keep playing then please let me know. And as an after thought........ i would advise you all to wait for the right guy. I have learned that the hard way and its not pretty to go down that road and get your heart broken. If i could save the world from that then i would. Absolutely would. But none of us are supermen and superwomen so we can't. But i do advise you to wait for awhile. at whatever age you are step back and see if you are: one.... Mature enough. two..... emotionally stable enough. and three..... old enough. wait till your older till you get into a relationship. You only live once so do what YOU wanna do and don't become an option to someone else. That's it for right now. :)